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03 March 2005 @ 07:45 pm

I don't actually have a particular reason for this journal entry. As a matter of fact, I'm fairly sure that it'll be filled with speculation about all sorts of things in life and that in some way or form, this speculation will be found to be entirely pointless. But, what the hell, right? Carpe diem. I know many of you have heard that in some form or another at some point in your life. If you're like me, you may have heard it first in French class. Or, if you were lucky, in France. Hell, maybe you even heard it on Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

Either way, you may have heard it.

What did I tell you? Completely pointless. No reason for it whatsoever. But, nonetheless...I continue to write.

I suppose I could ponder the meaning of life since I'm feeling a bit philosophical but that seems pretty overdone. I mean, when people are feeling philosophical, what do they do? They go over the meaning of life. Or something.

Or they talk about love. Which I really have nothing against. Why not think about love? It's an everyday presence in pretty much everyone's life in one way or another. For instance, I'm not dating anyone, don't have a boyfriend or anything, but I still know I'm loved. But I do wonder about what could be referred to as 'romantic love'.

What is romantic love, really? I don't know if there's a way to really define it. There's different levels of love, I think. There's that love where your content, not happy, just content. Then there's the love where you're happy with the person or when they're around, whatever. I know I'm not explaining those two levels very well. But there's another level I suppose you could say was the highest level of love. You can't go beyond that. What's that level? Well, I'll say what I think it is...what I think that level could be at the very least.

Some people say it's all-consuming love. The gotta-see-you-now-or-I'm-going-to-go-insane type of love. But I don't know if that is the highest level really. I mean, don't get me wrong, I think that can be a type of love, but it's not the one I'm thinking of. I'm talking about the type of love where you don't mind having long meaningless conversations or long meaningful conversations with each other because you're truly interested in what the other has to say. That type of love that completes you. Or, on the other hand, doesn't need to complete you, just makes you...more. Because you're already complete on your own but when you're with that person, you just become more.

That may not make much sense, but I swear it does in my head. Maybe when I can make it make even more sense of it, I'll post it again. More coherently. But for now that's my contemplation on love.

And now...now, I've pretty much gotten quite a bit of this out of my system and maybe I can concentrate on either a story or a role play. I haven't been able to focus on either one for a few days now. Wish me luck...while I go think of more stuff to write about.

Feeling: contemplativecontemplative
Soundtrack: "Feeling This" by Blink 182
jaded_angltears on March 3rd, 2005 08:54 pm (UTC)
You got really bored huh? LOL. Well, I can tell you that love is complicated. And sometimes it takes forever to find it but yeah...it's interesting. *sighs*

Guess we all need to contimplate this stuff. Anyways, *hugs* Love you hun. We should have like a sleep over type thing.

>_< I'm tired.