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12 January 2006 @ 12:21 am
Feeling: Image hosted by Photobucket.com angry

I can't even come up with some witty subject. Not that my subject's are usually witty, but they're usually better than a simple "Grr" I think.

Anyway, some of you may have read about Shorty and D in this post. Of course, now I have D's side of the story and I also got to actually talk to her and everything. So. Moving on. Let's just say, when I said D would get my support in this most likely, I was right. In a big huge way.

Why you ask? Let's just say Shorty got her fired by calling her work so often (and it's not where I'm taking just D's word...I heard this from Shorty first). There's more to that story, trust me, but I'm not going to post it here at the moment, if ever. Though I will add that I now know exactly what was said by D and it wasn't "I hate you." *rolls eyes* I just love when people use selective hearing during an argument, don't you? (Note my sarcasm.)

Anyway, I probably wouldn't even be angry except, like I said, I can't stand when a friend calls me crying and I can't do anything to comfort them. You add to the fact that I was so surprised by D and her call that I just blurted "Huh?" and it's just peachy.

D called me up and it's about...10:15 or so, our time. Which isn't unusual. When she was in Hawaii, I'd get calls at midnight or later just so we could chat. But this time she calls and I answer, wondering why she's calling me at this time of night for the first time in forever and what do I hear when I pick up the phone?

"Was I Shorty's dirty little secret?"

And that threw me. First, wasn't expecting that. Second, I don't remember the last time I heard D cry over the phone so...

Anyway, as I pointed out earlier, I was so surprised that I blurted out "Huh?" and then D repeated the question. And honestly? I don't know. Maybe she was. I can't truly say because if she was, I don't know if Shorty would go all freaky stalkerish with the phone calls to the point of getting her fired and calling at 2:30 in the morning and spilling her guts out to D's mom. So I told her I didn't know and asked what had brought this on.

Apparently D's been crying since this morning and then the song "Dirty Little Secret" came on and set her off on this thought process. (Which just supports my theory that the radio station we listen to has been playing that song way too much because that was like...the seventh time they'd played that since I started listening to the radio today. Okay, maybe sixth.)

Anyway, after that she had to go because her mom said she had done something wrong during the day so D was expecting to get yelled at. And the fact that the whole reason D's been busting her ass all day today and durding break is because of Shorty and her phone calls ticked me off. So we hung up. And before I came on here and went into a full fledged rant over it all, I decided to calm myself a bit by reading an old favorite fic of mine.

So that about sums this entry up. Just felt the need to get it all out. I'm going to go add to a fic, maybe do write an entry for an RP journal. I'm good now.

Plus, I've been dying to use this icon. Don't ask.
jaded_angltears on January 11th, 2006 11:52 pm (UTC)

I can't say that I'm surprised that she thought of this but I'm wondering HOW she came to that. Shorty wasn't quiet about their relationship so that's what I don't understand. I don't see that as a "Dirty Little Secret", you know?

That and Shorty is just an idiot. I honestly think 1. D needs to be taken AWAY from here in which I have no problem making that happen and 2. D needs to go out and meet OTHER women. So that first Thursday we were planning? So going.

Then again...I could just be coldhearted. That and I'm so sick of this shit that I'm giving up practically. And *hugs* don't worry, I was expecting something like this so try not to feel too bad about not being able to help her - you couldn't drive over there and there's really nothing you could do.
Nicole: Itchy trigger finger Faith.blue_icy_rose on January 12th, 2006 12:06 am (UTC)
Is it horrible that I went past that "OMG! I can't comfort you from here!" mode straight to "Shorty better be fucking gone from that house because I refuse to lose my temper for the first time in ever over her." mode? (See icon? Been dying to use that one too.)


Yeah, I could see how she'd wonder about it but with her telling her parents and then calling like 24/7, I wondered what made D think about it for longer than passing. I mean, I've never been in that type of relationship before and let's not go into that subject because it will lead to an entire conversation about girly pansy men who think they are the woman in the relationship and I'm so not wasting time on that.

So no, not heartless. I think the other thing that bothered me was when she says "I feel like I've got a dagger in my heart." and I was going "WHY do you tell me this when I can't do anything?!" Because you know me. Tears = comfort. Even if it's comfort in the form of me trying to make you laugh and I wasn't even able to do that before she had to go. So. But no, I went straight into "Shorty must go." mode from there. Now I'm just thinking that I can't wait for that first Thursday. Even if we end up not going out, because let's face it that's usually what happens. I still say we can make it memorable because...well, it's us and when hasn't one of those nights been memorable?
jaded_angltears on January 12th, 2006 12:10 am (UTC)
I'll make her go out if I have to. Shit, I'll pay. I'm just sick of this shit. I'm tired of dealing with her relationship because she refused to listen to people.

And that 'she' is both of them. *sighs* I know that you're in a different position but I hate that they're putting you in this position. They are both completely acting like idiots. I want to just...smack them both. It's pissing me off...*sighs* And now I'm even more pissed.

I know I'm being bitchy in this post. lol.
Nicole: Buffy through the years.blue_icy_rose on January 12th, 2006 12:36 am (UTC)
See and I'm not mad about being in this position because I put myself there deliberately. Matter of fact, I told D in November that she and I quote, "better damn well call me if something happens or she needs to talk." End quote. Which she didn't do when all this started happening, so I may smack her.

I think I should be given cookies for listening to Shorty rant about it all though. And giving advice when asked even if it was ignored.

But anyway, I can't be completely mad at D. I'm mad that it all happened and the way she handled it when it first started happening but then I take a step back and look at it all and I get it. Because she really loved Shorty I think. It's not like she's too young to know, you know? And love makes you do the whacky to quote Willow. But knowing the situation, her feelings, and her past, I can see why D fell into that relationship in the first place and then didn't do anything about it until recently. It takes something major. I mean, for example, I'd say my mom's a pretty "take no shit" type of woman, wouldn't you? But she didn't leave my (former, thank God) stepdad until he physically abused her. She stayed with him through the mental and verbal abuse and pretended it was all hunky dory with the rest of us because she loved him and well, yeah, he'd probably torn up her self-esteem. And then I look at my brother and his relationship with Miss I-May-Be-Pregnant-In California-While-You're-Not-Here-So-Baby-Isn't-Yours-Obviously and see him staying in that one because he loves her too. So I can't be completely mad at her because I also understand, you know?

But, hey, I get where you're coming from too. It's just I also see this side of it.
Amber: BtVS: Spike/Billydreamsinvisible on January 12th, 2006 06:20 am (UTC)
*pets your icons* I love the cute little emo kid! hesjustawittlecutiewootie!!!

Sorry, I don't know what to say about your post. Uh, hope things get better? I suck with RL friends, which is why I try not to have them.
Nicole: Father of the Bratblue_icy_rose on January 12th, 2006 08:42 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Not knowing what to say is cool, it was more of a rant anyway, lol.

And yes! I love that icon. I wish I knew who made it but I got through one of those meme quiz things where it tells you which icon fits you based off your username.
Sue: jolly goodjustforeverme on January 12th, 2006 02:11 pm (UTC)
I love that icon! It's fabulous!!
Nicole: But did it happen like this? Nooo.blue_icy_rose on January 12th, 2006 08:43 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I love that little guy. ^_^